"We're a Virus with shoes"
"As long as one person lives in darkness then it seems to be a responsibility to tell other people."
"It's just a ride and we can change it any time we want. It's only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings and money, a choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your door, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love instead see all of us as one." - (all) Bill Hicks
Happiness doesn't depend on anything that has or has not happened in the past, nor does it depend on your future prospects. The simple fact is, in order to be happy: YOU MUST DECIDE TO BE HAPPY.
Yep. Isn't that aggravating? You can't blame it on anyone else, and no one else can do a thing for you. You've just got to decide to be happy, whether or not your logical mind thinks it is rational to be happy and whether or not your moral sense thinks you deserve to be happy. You absolutely will not be happy for any length of time until you decide to, and if you decide to, you can be happy in the face of the most miserable circumstances. _author unknown.
For some time here in my life and due to some nightmarish childhood visions that my mind harbors in things that happened to me or that i participated in, I've searched for the meaning in myself and others, something that I believe we all do from time to time in our lives some perhaps more than others. I am writing this blog in a 'free-floating blog style' which is in a rough draft sort of style. I don't have the patience at this time to correct anything and unapologetically am going to let the thoughts and words and letters flow from my soul to my heart and then through my fingertips to the keyboard and with any interest on your part into your mind for a few precious moments.
Precious moments. Those are every single bit of time that we have on this planet.
TIME-the system of those sequential relations that any event has to any other, as past, present, or future; indefinite and continuous duration regarded as that in which events succeed one another.
THAT is our current definition taken from Webster's Dictionary and universally accepted as the base or basis of what we as humans perceive to be 'TIME'. We start out with an allotted time slot that our genetics have gifted or afforded us. How long an organism lives is called its life span. In 1998, the average life span for a human, worldwide, was sixty-six years. However, life span is a complex trait, meaning that many factors, including Family history, lifestyle, disease, and residence in a developed nation, determine how long an individual's life will be. The average life span in a particular population changes as these factors change. For example, the average life span in the United States in 1900 was forty-nine; in 1998 it was seventy-seven.
So because of a jump in the hygiene market we exceeded a predicted demise for some. I do not want to get lost in the endless debate of overpopulation or the usage (or wastefulness) of the resources on this planet. Although all contributing factors really should not and truly cannot be ignored when factoring in our time here on earth, I feel that it strays from the more personal and human issues that I want to stress in this blog.
So more to the point, and more of an elaboration of a former post, I cannot stress enough the fact that this life we are all leading has to come to some definitive end or culmination of our time spent here on earth.
As many of you know, my mother died in February of this year. It's something that my heart and soul cannot possibly understand accept really or even agree with. It is truly unreal even to this day and although I try to pretend everyday that it hasn't happened, I know that it really did. My Mom is buried under six feet of dirt and ground in a box that my sister and I picked out because we thought she would have liked it. She WOULD Have..had she still been alive to pick it out. She trusted us with these things, I suppose. Alive. Thats something that i never thought that my Mom wouldn't be. My heart wouldn't let my mind conceive of it because of what a shining light she was for me and everyone in this family. Although I may share this type of belief or perception of my mother or the ones who bared me with so many other people around the globe that has lost one of these 'loved ones', I feel separated from the fact.
#1 I have watched how other people in my extended family treat each other and discard the ones that love them to the side like so much refuse. I have witnessed people become more swallowed up in their own little worlds and crush everyone that is a featherweight more happy than they might be. I have been there to see the ones closest utterly crush and destroy the bonds and bridges that otherwise held them together for reasons that only served selfish needs.
This was not in any case emancipation from any kind of oppression but from the sheer thought that someone might per chance be happier than they were at that fleeting moment.
My brain cannot muster the ideology behind these moves and is now unfortunately trying to decipher these things and fit them into the chain of events leading to this subtraction of being. I cannot think of a one! Is it ignorance on my part? Unlikely.
I have to say at this point that although I have many faults as those closest to me know especially in the recesses of their hearts ( because that is where i have forced them to put everything), I could never treat anyone that I have come into contact with in my awakening as trash. ESPECIALLY family!
There is something bigger than we are folks, I promise! Can't you feel it? This life or universe as we perceive it is chalked with questions even now in this day and age that is BEGGING for exploration. I am not just talking about the universe itself but perhaps the inner-verse which we tend to ignore and only pay attention to the outer parts of ourselves! This is not the ramblings or rantings of one who is trying to place himself in the universe of all things and make importance of his being. This is one who is seeing the bigger picture of who or what they may be in relation to every other living and sentient being in the conundrum of life!
I asked my mother one day seriously, "What if God doesn't exist? What if the life you lived according to him and his 'will' was all for not and you found that he never existed?" I thought that this should surely shake her thoughts and perhaps even her foundation which was built solely on the word of God that she had learned all her life. It didn't. She replied,
" Then I have lived a good life and I could never be ashamed or regretful of that."
To this day those words resonate with me and I understand that no matter what my beliefs may be or what doctrine I may perceive to be the truth, I understand that being good means so many things and that they are wholesome.
good
[goo
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Show IPA adjective,bet·ter, best, noun, interjection, adverb
–adjective
1.
morally excellent; virtuous; righteous; pious: a good man.
2.
satisfactory in quality, quantity, or degree: a good teacher; good health.
3.
of high quality; excellent.
4.
right; proper; fit: It is good that you are here. His credentials are good.
5.
well-behaved: a good child.
6.
kind, beneficent, or friendly: to do a good deed.
8.
educated and refined: She has a good background.
9.
financially sound or safe: His credit is good.
10.
genuine; not counterfeit: a good quarter.
11.
sound or valid: good judgment; good reasons.
12.
reliable; dependable; responsible: good advice.
13.
healthful; beneficial: Fresh fruit is good for you.
14.
in excellent condition; healthy: good teeth.
15.
not spoiled or tainted; edible; palatable: The meat was still good after three months in the freezer.
16.
favorable; propitious: good news.
17.
cheerful; optimistic; amiable: in good spirits.
18.
free of distress or pain; comfortable: to feel good after surgery.
19.
agreeable; pleasant: Have a good time.
20.
attractive; handsome: She has a good figure.
21.
(of the complexion) smooth; free from blemish.
22.
close or intimate; warm: She's a good friend of mine.
23.
sufficient or ample: a good supply.
24.
advantageous; satisfactory for the purpose: a good day for fishing.
25.
competent or skillful; clever: a good manager; good at arithmetic.
26.
skillfully or expertly done: a really good job; a good play.
28.
socially proper: good manners.
29.
remaining available to one: Don't throw good money after bad.
30.
comparatively new or of relatively fine quality: Don't play in the mud in your good clothes.
31.
best or most dressy: He wore his good suit to the office today.
32.
full: a good day's journey away.
33.
fairly large or great: a good amount.
34.
free from precipitation or cloudiness: good weather.
35.
Medicine/Medical. (of a patient's condition) having stable and normal vital signs, being conscious and comfortable, and having excellent appetite, mobility, etc.
36.
fertile; rich: good soil.
37.
loyal: a good Democrat.
38.
(of a return or service in tennis, squash, handball, etc.) landing within the limits of a court or section of a court.
39.
Horse Racing. (of the surface of a track) drying after a rain so as to be still slightly sticky: This horse runs best on a good track.
40.
(of meat, esp. beef) noting or pertaining to the specific grade below “choice,” containing more lean muscle and less edible fat than “prime” or “choice.”
41.
favorably regarded (used as an epithet for a ship, town, etc.): the good ship Syrena.
–noun
42.
profit or advantage; worth; benefit: What good will that do? We shall work for the common good.
43.
excellence or merit; kindness: to do good.
44.
moral righteousness; virtue: to be a power for good.
45.
(esp. in the grading of U.S. beef) an official grade below that of “choice.”
46.
goods,
a.
possessions, esp. movable effects or personal property.
b.
articles of trade; wares; merchandise: canned goods.
c.
Informal. what has been promised or is expected: to deliver the goods.
d.
Informal. the genuine article.
e.
Informal. evidence of guilt, as stolen articles: to catch someone with the goods.
f.
cloth or textile material: top-quality linen goods.
g.
Chiefly British. merchandise sent by land, rather than by water or air.
47.
the good,
a.
the ideal of goodness or morality.
b.
good things or persons collectively.
–interjection
—Idioms
48.
(used as an expression of approval or satisfaction): Good! Now we can all go home.
51.
come to no good, to end in failure or as a failure: Her jealous relatives said that she would come to no good.
52.
for good, finally and permanently; forever: to leave the country for good. Also, for good and all.
53.
good and, Informal. very; completely; exceedingly: This soup is good and hot.
54.
good for,
a.
certain to repay (money owed) because of integrity, financial stability, etc.
b.
the equivalent in value of: Two thousand stamps are good for one coffeepot.
c.
able to survive or continue functioning for (the length of time or the distance indicated): These tires are good for another 10,000 miles.
d.
valid or in effect for (the length of time indicated): a license good for one year.
e.
(used as an expression of approval): Good for you!
55.
good full, Nautical. (of a sail or sails) well filled, esp. when sailing close to the wind; clean full; rap full.
56.
make good,
a.
to make recompense for; repay.
b.
to implement an agreement; fulfill.
c.
to be successful.
d.
to substantiate; verify.
e.
to carry out; accomplish; execute: The convicts made good their getaway.
57.
no good, without value or merit; worthless; contemptible:The check was no good.
58.
to the good,
a.
generally advantageous: That's all to the good, but what do I get out of it?
b.
richer in profit or gain: When he withdrew from the partnership, he was several thousand dollars to the good.
Numbers 10 and 12 are my favorite! Though I have failed miserably at #12 in my past and continue to do so ( I am trying to warm up to this one). So I suppose that the definitions and parameters of GOOD and WHOLESOME could be up for debate.
Whatever.
These are the English definitions of this word and they seem to be universally accepted and I will not entertain the semantics of their origins or meanings. This is what GOOD means and it was established a long long time ago. AND Although I am all for pushing and breaking boundaries, I feel that this is not game worthy of pursuing!
THIS BLOG TO BE CONTINUED AS IT IS 2AM AND i AM FALLING ASLEEP!
